Flashbacks. Nightmares. Dreams of what might have been if things happened differently. Hauntings of the Past.
This morning I woke up haunted yet again by dreams of the past.
I was not the best person in my past, but I’m working every day to change that and become who God knows I can be. As I prayed this morning for comfort regarding the dreams I have that haunt me of my past, I received a very clear inspiration that I need to remember, and share:
Living in the past is what destroyed my mother.
She’s his child too, but she made choices to brood on the past and I truly believe that was the start of her unraveling, the cause of the person she has become today. Why she makes herself miserable and everyone around her miserable. Why she abused me, and would continue to do so if I let her. So if I hold onto my past, I will probably end up destroying my life and all the ones I love and care about the most.
That is my greatest fear. I pray for strength for all of us who are haunted by our past, things we did or things that happened to us. May we find our Heavenly Father’s love and peace, and work towards a better life for ourselves and those we love and cherish.
I hope my subconscious will eventually stop pestering me with the pain of my past, but I know the adversary would like nothing more than for me to dwell there and begin unraveling everything I’ve worked for. So I will fight it when I wake up. I’ll remind myself when I have flashbacks that that is NOT my life anymore. When I dream about what might have been, I’ll remind myself why I’m so grateful things didn’t end up that way because my life is truly blessed just the way it is.
I can’t leave a post without music, because music has been so helpful to my journey. So here is the song that came to mind as I wrote this this morning:
Have a wonderful day!